Mid-Mid-Life Crisis

Have you ever felt like you've been asleep you're entire existence? For the past week my Advanced Creative Writing class with Dr. Hess has been reading Natural Disaster by Al Burian. It's safe to say that he is one of my favorite authors, but on Friday we watched a few videos on YouTube from Burian's band, Milemarker. This lead to a discussion on how Burian travels a lot and really doesn't stay in one place too long (unless its N. Carolina). I mean, this guy travels with his band(s) and sleeps on couches and eats when he can and tries to stay awake for long periods of time. This guy is living life while I am stuck here at Rider University learning to be a teacher. I want to travel and write. I want to write. Teaching can wait til I'm old. Anyway, eventually it got to a point in class where it pretty much evolved into a Mid-Mid-Life crisis for me and I just broke down. I kept calm, trying to show nothing but I couldn't help but feel as if I have been asleep for the past two decades of my life. I feel like I have been no where but New Jersey for the entirety of my life and it makes me want to vomit. Don't get me wrong, I love New Jersey and it will always be home, but I want to travel. I want to see things. I want to go on road trips. Sleep on couches. In the backseat of my car. I want to be able to say "I did that." to my kids. You know what I mean? Life is too short to be dabbled with. So as I sign off, I leave you with this question....

Who wants to come with me?